Staying Strong

If next time you wish to complain about how difficult exams can be, try being there for the people that you love when you know that you can't do anything to help ease their pain.

My mom's sick. She's always been a lady of strength in the family. Despite the toughest problems and trials that may come our way, she has always been the one that stands up and takes the problem by the neck and by the horns, tackles them, and moves on. Now she's sick and she's lying on the bed getting rest. The burden of the home and the house now rests on me and my dad's shoulders. The worst part is not the house work - though it's frankly enough to kill a cow - the greatest pain is to see my mother in pain and not knowing how to ease it. That's a struggle. A big one.

My dad's busy in the farm. He is working on a 5 hectare plot of farm land where he's growing palm oils for his research project. I went down to the farm to help him out here and there. Guess what, I nearly killed all his palm oils in his farm. 5 hectares of palm oils killed over one afternoon. All because I sprinkled fertilizer into the shoots of the plants. And my dad had to go back to the farm and slog for an additional 7 hours just to make up for my mistake while I was watching movies with my friends. That's a big ouch.

My close friends are far away. Si Han's in YP, Erin's back in Kluang, Jim's back in BP, Allison and Caleb's in SA. I'm left without my best friends! I miss them, especially at times like this where I'm down and tired.

The toughest thing in life is not to get through tough time, but to stay tough and strong in the times where people depend on you. My parents depended on me at such times, and I let them down. Disappointing and to my dismay, I failed to be there for them.

Forgive me for whining here. I'm just venting out some tears in the form of steam. Nothing much left here, so just move on.